Thursday, May 03, 2007

Coming to Terms

Having one of those days when I'm a whiner.

But God, I want to buy more food than just the bare minimum.
I want to take the kids to Pizza Hut.
I want to hire a babysitter so I can go to friend's birthday party.
I want to be able to buy a 2nd/3rd hand bookshelf.
I want to be able to have a savings account.
I want to be able to buy cleaning supplies when I run out.
I want to have medical coverage and not have to hope Medicaid has approved us again.
I want to have the rent money before the due date
But God, I want bills to get paid and not go to collections.

I'm sure many of you will look down this list and probably think, "These don't seem like crazy requests, why can't they have those things??"

Guess it's not the right time and, for as much as I bitch and moan, when I look at my Daddy I know not getting these things right now is okay. There is a bigger picture and I'm looking at it. Thank You for peace and perspective.


Tara said...

I know you wrote this a while ago but I just have to tell you I am with you. I completely understand and agree and feel the same way. You aren't alone in your frustrations.

meritt said...

... I, for one know EXACTLY what you are talking about.

PS: I found your blog today and clicked on it because the link said you married right out of high school.

Me too!

I turned 18 in April.
We graduated in May.
Married in July.

Moved 2000 miles from home, friends, family. :)

Summer said...

I'm sooooo there. I have a huge request I've been lifting up to God in prayer for 9 and 1/2 months and it seems like God's just not listening. I have the sneaky suspicion that He's trying to teach me to trust Him when things don't make sense...but, it's so stinkin' hard.

Thanks for sharing your heart.