Saturday, August 20, 2005

So Arrest Me!

Barely has my blogging career started and I've already committed a faux pas. I HAVEN'T BLOGGED IN OVER A WEEK!!! No, please, stop crying you addicts I'll try harder, I promise. It's not like I haven't tried...twice my entries were accidently deleted in a freak blogging accident. (Who the hell coined that term anyway?) Frankly, I have lacked wit and sense for the last week so I really did everyone a favor (according to my comments section, no one's reading this anyway). It would have been full of PMS bitchiness that is extra bitchy in my case.
I have returned to being my damn witty self so full speed ahead on the blogging. Toodles!

Friday, August 12, 2005

Hallelujah, My Brain Lives!

Back in my pre-marriage days I was a fairly dedicated writer of music, poetry and random thoughts. I haven't had much time to do any creative/deep thinking since...oh, 4 FREAKIN YEARS AGO. I thought the brain matter that contained poetry songs had somehow died in the screaming of child birth (mine, not my kids). Imagine my surprise when I actually wrote and put music to a song chorus today. I used to get inspiration in the normal way...silence, natural beauty, teenage angst. Today I was giving my son a bath. As I sat on the floor watching him meticulously dump water from a cup to a bowl magic happened. My brain summoned up it's creativity and birthed music. Talk about a precious gift to me...I laughed at the novelty that I had not lost all awesome thought. Granted it wasn't my best work, but it definately inspired me to maybe try and pick up the ol guitar and pluck it a little. Blessings all.

Wednesday, August 10, 2005

Hi, I'm a bloggaholic

So it's taken all of two friggin weeks for me to become completely hooked on this stinkin new fad of blogging. I had my first "real" world conversation about bloggin today. I think I've crossed some kind've invisible line which will be very hard to cross back over. How long will it be before we actually do have therapy about's day is coming.
On the positive side it's a great way for people to release pent up emotions and get in touch with their selves and other people. I loved writing in high school and I think I've just found my new outlet. Thank God for the invention of the computer!
I'd love to spew out lots of nothing for much longer, but J is wiped out from soccer practice and wants me to come to bed. Geez, men and ability to go to sleep alone! Blessings

Monday, August 08, 2005

How many kids do you have??!!

Here is a problem I continue to face...and yet I have no answer. The problem of how many kids any one mother chooses to have. J and I decided last year that two is our (my physical and emotional) limit to the number of kids we should have. Because of my age, the midwife strongly expressed that tubal ligation IS NOT reversible. NO PROBLEM! I know that, for me, two is all I can handle...any more and I would be in a corner with my hands over my ears screaming, "Make the bad little people go away!"
But, for some reason, there's a huge number of moms who think that 4 kids is the ideal number for ALL moms. I totally admire and respect anyone who can raise and love in a sane manner more than 2 kids. But just because you can do it doesn't mean we all can.
I really think there are some women out there who are really gifted with kids and those who simply missed the mommy boat. By all means, if you don't think you can handle more kids think about stopping. There are also moms who probably shouldn't have had any kids to begin with. They are the ones who do spend most of their days in a corner screaming.
By no means am I telling you to get rid of your kids (necessarily), but consider establishing a net of people whom your kids can learn from and get love from if you're unable to cope. I don't think moms of olden times could've made it without a community of women (aunts, cousins, neighbors, grandparents) to help them raise their kids.

It's such a sad reality that in our modern day we have forgotten how to be a true community. No wonder so many of us set our kids in front of a TV or computer for hours on end. We, as sole caregivers, don't have a human to help us. Maybe parenting books and magazines should stop telling us that too much TV is bad and start teaching us how to be a better community. One of my dear friends L just moved a block away a couple months ago. We trade kids, meals, massages and more and I think we're both a little more sane because of it. Please don't abandon finding a close girlfriend just because you have kids. We need it.

Sunday, August 07, 2005

I have arrived

All I can say is that it's about bloody time I joined the world of blogging. Being a mom just makes you want to get things off your chest (sometimes literally!) and what better way to do that than on the internet.
Let me introduce myself with a brief life history (all 23 years worth). I grew up in Billings, MT...was tragically homeschooled until seventh grade (still have issues from that) and finally ended up in a publice high school. My parents were unbelievably strict folks and I broke free by eloping with J. That turned out to be the best decision I've ever made. In our 4 1/2 years have produced 2 cute kids, 5 trips to Turkey and one crazy adventure.
Blogging fascinates me because I was a ravenous journaler in my high school years. So, hopefully my rants may contribute positively to this big blogging world. Adieu